I will never be the same.

(262) Last.

2012-01-21T22:17:00.001+08:00

昨天，今天，我去了曾经到过的地方，带着不同的心情。
时间变化，紧凑的日子，放慢脚步，或许会有意外的发现。

最后一个学期，悲喜交集。
Poly生涯要到一段落了…… 这三年发生了好多事，好多变化。
简单的学习，单纯的友情，变复杂了。
时间一分一秒地过去，周围的人事物似乎在提醒我们曾经错过的光阴。
原本坚定的友情却变得不堪一击，我不安了。
多出的猜疑，不信任。
友情不是单方面的经营，感情也是。
我付出的，收不回来。
不管我们最后到底怎么样，希望你们都过得好好的。

#261 Changes.

2012-01-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

First post for 2012 ^^v
spent three days straight with my family. full of quarrels, anger, tears, laughter.
i love the fact that no matter how much you quarrel with your family, how nasty the conversations get, they will still be there for you. no one is born to be someone else parent, we learn as we live.
love how they play a part in my life. :>

my last term starts tomorrow. 不想老得只剩下抱怨。
加油了，我是女王。

#260 lastdayof2011

2011-12-26T21:01:00.001+08:00

December is always full of gatherings among good friends, no? at least for me. December is always full of celebrations... Baby's birthday, Christmas, Boxing day and new year countdown. I love December, except for common tests and meeting datelines for assignments. 2 weeks break past so fast, its the last day of 2011 already... its been fruitful, i managed to meet most of my friends!

First I met dear Wanzhen. I haven't see her for nearly 3 years! miss the sakae sushi we had after O levels with Betty, Peishan, Ruhui, Weewee and Boontso. I have good memory eh? We had our catch-up session @ Arteastique. Pomelo and Lavender Earl Grey Tea lasted us for about 5 hours? Worth it. oh and some smoked salmon sandwiches. so much of jurongville memories, looking forward to our next date!

Sheryll babe, the sweetest girl I had. probably one of the few among Karate-kas (am I right?) I am still in contact with. We had a ... misunderstanding. HA

all was well. finally met up... inschool. Ha cos we've got no idea where to meet up. Quality time spent, love yababe!

Unexpected Christmas gifts from mylovelies. Famous amos from my dearest son and garfield. butterscotch cookies.Pecans are good.

handmade card and merci from mydearest mushroom. my old friend indeed, she knows me well. I love handmadegifts more than anything. I want to grow old with you, definitely.

we met exactly on the 30th dec lastday, this year we met again. i wanna spend every 30th dec with you. and manymore of course! thanks for making the special trip down to my place, hope thefood was good. TGIF because I got to meet you :>

so the last day of 2011, it wasterrible, initially. my eyes were sore, i'd cried so badly both yesterday andtoday. no idea why I got so oversensitive and emotional after baby's incident.I hate the feeling of losing something. probably because of this reason, I tendto take things too seriously. Sorry if I gave chances to any friendship beingruined, I don't mean it. Mommy, sorry for venting my frustrations on you thismorning. Luckily... I went for the gathering at Somerset Liang Court Hotel withMommy. We had a nice time definitely! chilling out at the deluxe suite sisterbooked for today. MacDonald Twister fries was good! Mommy was so thankful thatshe got me this camera (Canon Powershot G12) haha cos no one in myfamily/relative is into photography. I enjoyed every photo sessions with myfamily and friends, despite having the same expressions in every photos.indeed, the only thing we can never find justice with is T.I.M.E. obvious signson age-ing.

decided not to stay overnightbecause daddy will be home alone. so we went off about 4-5pm to Chinatown toget daddy's employee a present. He's going back soon, but I hope hes willing tocome back to help daddy again. in any case just wish him all the best ineverything he does in future. so I'd decided to get him a Lomography La SardinaCamera. That was the best thing I can think of, I am a little broke tho, butyeah I'd decided to get that for him. We walked from Song Fa Bak Kut Teh allthe way to Maxwell food court. Can you imagine how long we've walked? Just tosatisfy my tau huay craving and to get the camera. The original La Sardinaswere left with the deluxe kit which cost 348$. I was a little reluctant to buy,but Mommy asked if I want it, and she went to pay for it. I know work's beenespecially tough for her over the past few days, hard-earned money. She buy itfor me without a second thought, how noble can my mommy be? I am not beingmaterialistic, but I am really moved by her. Shes always there for me under anycircumstances, always trying her very best to fulfill my wishes, trying toplease her youngest daughter. I am thankful that daddy and her are showingtheir support for my photography interest. I know I have a long way to go, butI am not giving up. Thank you, Daddy and Mommy. It's their 25th Anniversarytoday too, love them to bits!

2011 will be over in 30minutes. I amsuch a fortunate girl, its been a great year. Hope 2012 will be as goodtoo!

my new year resolution shall be:

to lead a healthy lifestyle

to spend more time with family andfriends

to live without regrets

(259) 11/11/2011, 11:11pm

2011-11-12T13:07:00.001+08:00

It was a special day yesterday, at least to me. 11nov2011, and everyone is awaiting for 11:11am/pm. can't deny I am one of them. It was a Friday too, coincidentally. I wouldn't want to bury myself in piles of assignments especially on a Friday night. no special plans or celebrations yesterday, just another usual dinner date with my beloved Percy pig @ Jurong point. No doubt she's one of the few who can convinced me to go Jurong point.

I actually started my day with my wall clock falling off from the wall, what a bad start right? it affected my mood a lil and who knew it got worst when I realized I forgot to bring my wallet out. hate to borrow from friends. everything goes pretty smooth until my practical lesson, trying so hard to understand the shit out of it but it just couldn't get into my mind. so i gave up, and started stoning there like no one's biz. no one knows that i am in a foul mood. I just don't feel like doing anything, in fact this bothers me for quite some time. stayed over to finish up my draft which was due yesterday and took train to Jurong point.

can't believe that I'd actually alighted at Joo Koon instead of Boon Lay, I am not being my usual self yesterday. met up with Percy pig and we settled down at Fig and Olive. felt equally bad when she paid for my meals. she drove me home with her 'si gi na 5004', which was about to be sold away. I must be lucky to be the last few to sit in it. I bet she need a longer time to get used to her new SJJ. oh and she felt so high in the midst of the journey, took the wrong direction and drove a longer route to my home. Love the time spent with her :> will be meeting her next week again with my dearest Zhu. can't wait!

/P.S: don't forget our Bintan trip next year! still far tho.

(258) Chance upon.

2011-11-06T00:37:00.001+08:00

你们都要健健康康的。

我讨厌被遗忘的感觉_

最近的感触好多，好深。突然觉得自己的存在有多么的……不重要。有些感觉被我遗忘在心里的某个角落，有点怀念，但是没有勇气去找回来。绕了这么大一圈，原来我一直都在原地打转。
不要问我，不要理我。

/放过自己吧。

(257) Love again

2011-11-02T23:23:00.001+08:00

I should be doing assignments now. I should be studying now. I should stop playing tetris battle. at this rate or learning, i doubt i will be able to graduate this semester. what the fuck is wrong with me... hate counting down every mondays to friday. hate meeting deadlines. hate the feelings' i am having now. ahhhhh

(256) so Sunday

2011-10-30T22:12:00.001+08:00

LC-W X FIREWORKS

The last semester is really tough... assignments.assignments.assignments. I wonder when can I finish them before they start to pile up again. will the day come? :<

Hate to feel so sensitive over little things, sigh. shan't waste time to whine about assignments, I have to finish them anyway. Had a hard time striking a balance between Family, Friends and School work. when you got so little time and so many things to do, you just got to plan them right. so... quality time with family and friends and quantity time on homework. easy to say, hard to do.

I am so reluctant to exercise nowadays, ever since I went to see a physician. screwed up my body system and it's too late to regret now. just hope I wouldn't end up getting used to acupuncture.

met my girls yesterday :) second time seeing silly this week felt so lucky hehehe. feels so secured whenever she's around :> our dear ting was late, so we got free nuggets haha. plus her fries. I shouldn't have eat I know... we shall meet up again soon! hopes our workload gets lighter then...

oh while waiting I bumped into ah xiong again. this time we look at each other with a default stunned face. hahaha. i know him for almost 5 years but we never get to meet up despite both of us stay so near to each other. i must say he is cute. here's our convo on msn this afternoon:

w says:
HEY HEY
THE WEATHER FRKING HOT
Rinn says:
SUPER
w says:
LOL
WHY UH
Rinn says:
IVE GOT NO IDEA LEH
w says:
GO DO RaiN DANCE PLS
ok im just being irritating

ok I have spent the whole of my sunday in front of this damn laptop. enough. i am going blind soon i think. bed time soon, but imma feeling a bit ... blue :< it's Monday again *sian*

problems come from ourselves. we are the roots for all problems.

(255) Teamwork.

2011-10-28T22:22:00.001+08:00

Second place hehehe

First time joining the boys for captain's ball organized by LSCT and came in second. Had a tough match with the 'KINGSY'. oh and we are 'SEXY AND I KNOW IT'. despite losing the game, I think we enjoyed a lot yesterday. Body aches today, old liao old liao.

Happy 19th Son :>

It's Son's birthday too! Glad he like the NY cap, good taste hehe.

What a long nong day. went to 'Grace Digital Lab' at Sunset way to develop my films during my 2 hours break earlier this noon. it is so much convenient than triple D which is located at Burlington mall. cheaper rates too. PLUS they are super efficient: films are ready in an hour's time. Shall go there to develop my films in future! visited Swisslink cafe too! it's just nearby and they serve nice pastry! :> according to son and CJY, shall try next time!

I'm getting so sick of school, how...

can't stop mind f.ing'

(254) Twenty years, Two people, One day

2011-10-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

This week...sigh.
caught 'One Day' last evening with Silly Ong. a very unexpected ending :< Lim Mama was kind enough to drive me home! ^^ oh and silly taught me a new word yesterday, STMF: sweet talk mother fucker. such a nice abbreviation.

Two more school days, weekend faster come please. so sick of school.
assignments piling up like a small hill and its only the second week, i think lecturers nowadays are sick in mind. Having captain ball competition tomorrow, hope we will win ;D

P.S: once my son, always my son.

(253) We need smileys to pretend

2011-10-23T22:09:00.001+08:00

I will do all my best to salvage a friendship,
giving in to all the lil things,
because I really cherish.

But then I realize,...
it takes two hands to clap.

You said you are just being yourself,
so are you saying you ain't being yourself all this while?

(252) Skip Beat

2011-10-22T22:30:00.004+08:00

i wouldnt want to waste time counting how many friends i'd lost over the past few years, who and why. instead i want to spend time with those who are still with me.

The thought of exams, work and meeting datelines make me feel so...

Guess the only time I feel relaxed is when I am exercising, 爽！

(251) Thoughts of quitting...

2011-10-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

I am not in my usual self lately... am i being too cautious to people whom I am not so familiar with? no idea why I can't open up, but I am definitely not being attitude or stereotype towards anyone! guess I am too used to holiday and internship that I got so not used to school life. used to miss school life during holiday but now... my brain got so dead after so long zzz.

the only time when my mind is clear is when I am exercising now, feels good after a session of 30mins! jogging or skipping for a few hundred times. persevere~

k the thought of staying in school till 5 on a friday makes me so...

(250) First day of school

2011-10-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

Salmon in seaweed soup! by dear daddy

To my surprise, the tutors for both my tourism and world issues seemed interesting! and for the first time I am not alone! used to be alone for elective classes but this time round was accompanied by son, Cain and Clement for tourism and Clement(Again), Desmond, Zenhan, and Yongjun. weets.

woke up as early as 5:50am this morning despite having class at 10am. went for a jog. reminds me of how B and I used to jog in the morning...

tuition with boy again. not a pleasant one because he'd cried. Really hate people making fun of him! It is not funny and you are not doing any good to him! hate this feeling, feels so useless everytime when he told me he got bullied or mocked by some idiots. really.hate.this.shit. don't worry, karma takes time to reach you. Hopefully, 傻人有傻福……

I know mommy is being kind by cutting fruits for me despite having a long day of work, but i really hate to eat after brushing my teeth. first time was okay but second time i am not compromising you should know. sorry. i appreciated them, why not leave them for tomorrow?

Please don't let this affect me...

P.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUSHROOM

(249) Last day of holiday

2011-10-16T22:24:00.001+08:00

I am not looking to tomorrow very much... maybe I should, it is the last semester of my poly education. somehow time passes so fast, have been saying this for a million times but can't help to emphasize how much time I have wasted over the holidays, not entirely tho. still, hai~

spent my last three days @ B's house :> perfect holiday getaway for me, love to name there as a holiday resort hehe. can say Friday was pretty fruitful because I did my wooden D.I.Y tissue box which looks like a robot! shall take a picture of it someday. oh! I have also pasted some photos in my room by means of the used film cartridges. Look good, yes? :)

me mushroom ng in the late afternoon to past her something, *grins* hopes she likes it. so dearest Uncle greeted me with my fav bah kut teh that evening. cousin and cousin-in-law came to have dinner too! so sweet of cousin-in-law, considering that I might not be able to reach out for vegetables, he took the initiative to get some of it for me hehe.

Uncle got my favorite yam pancake for my breakfast next morning, big love for him! Spent half of my day @ Jeanyip. did soft rebond, scalp and hair treatment there and fuck it costs a big bomb! wouldn't dare to imagine how much it would be if it's not the package price. Thanks to my two pretty cousins, they paid some of it for me :) wouldn't want to visit jeanyip again. but thanks to them I am really looking into my hair fall problem now. it's been haunting me since I was in Taiwan, or maybe before it. I wouldn't want to risk being bald. shall see a physician and see what she says. meanwhile I guess I should re-adjust my daily lifestyle? like sleeping early and such small things might be the things I have overlooked for all this while.

&this morning we had brunch at 'My Toast'. No more second chance to this shop. Their food is either too sweet or salty, same for drink. what an experience there, such a spoiler in the morning. on a happy note, I really love uncle's cooking, even it is a fried egg.

felt so blessed this few days. I am really happy to have these people around me, my family and friends. really appreciate their presence, and I guess that is what that keeps me motivated. I wouldn't have come this far if they weren't there, always by my side, always supporting me in their ways. feels stronger after this holiday. whether I end up studying in local or overseas university, I will still appreciate what you guys have done. can't express how much I love them through words but still Thank you, it's good to have you guys by my side.

Family is always my priority, and this will never change.
Good luck for the new semester!

P.S: Dream high is really inspiring!

L.O.V.E on the wall


left over wood from d.i.y tissue box

mushroom ng

uncle's signature bah kut teh

my fav yam pancake

(248) Impromptu meet-up

2011-10-14T01:46:00.002+08:00

where'd you go, i'd miss you so.

Supposedly my plan of staying home today went pretty smooth till i received a call this evening... by silly hehe :> loves how we never fail to turn up for last minute meet-up. i guess staying in the same area plays a major role too? so sick of town areas, nothing but shopping. no idea what to shop lately except for grocery, sounds more and more like some aunties? anyway, we had dinner (for her actually) @ Swensen. not a big fan of Swensen but I've tried the Banana crumble and it tastes good! so banana. silly girl had mega burger, it was really Mega. hardly see her ordering such a big portion.

went to look for her eyeliner after dinner. she is so fickle-minded! hahaa can't decide between the brands. oh we bought Gongcha too. had Fresh milk w Herbal jelly and it tastes so good ooh-la-la. Realized I got so easily influenced by her everytime! mostly good except for branded stuff hehe.

really look forward to our grad trip next year! and i am so appreciative of her thoughts of meeting me up today, even tho it was so last minute. love you silly, i am sure you know that ;> oh and thanks to CJY for the honey/egg hair treatment and driving us back home. i want my bah kut teh / tau huay SOON *grins*

got to adjust my cocked up body clock, been sleeping so late and taking naps in the middle of the day. argh. had a good day spent with mommy, despite talking all sorts of nonsense.

/P.S: i think we should talk more boy :>

(247) Life is beautiful

2011-10-13T00:54:00.001+08:00

everyday i am lomo-ing

Had a dinner date with Amirun last night @ the Ice cube cafe, Esplanade. To be frank I thought Esplanade is @ Expo LOL so I thought we will need to travel all the way down to the East side but I realize I was wrong. Paiseh max. Pretty confident that he wasnt' aware that I was mistaken about this two places hehe. so our dinner date turns out to good! some awkward silences at the beginning as expected but soon we start talking non-stop. topics revolve around religion, family and personalities. more of a heart-to-heart session, got to know him more through yesterday's meet-up. Thanks for his Hot chocolate treat which came just in time to curb my menstrual cramp. took a stroll to Marina bay sands after dinner, was so engrossed in the conversation that we'd forgotten all about the timings and we missed the last transportation home. $.$ spent quite a sum on cab fare sigh makes me feel like taking driving lesson. No pictures taken despite bringing both my g12 and instax out quite a pity but a day off from snapping :P

Facial date with my sweet girl Avalyn. As usual my face got so swollen with bumps all over, hate how sensitive my face can be. Menstrual cramp can be quite persistent at times I wonder why. grab a blueberry waffle from a nearby bakery shop after the 3-4hours of facial, barely survive after the long and cold session. Sweet girl wait for my bus to come first before she board hers hehe love you.

shall stay home tomorrow and let my face rest! ^v^oh not to forget i love the new blogger!

it sounds stupid but i actually miss the times with you, guess we aren't the same anymore.

/P.s: CJY got me a gift from BKK hehe thanks bro, hope to satisfy my Rochor tauhuay and bah kut teh craving before school starts! *hints*

P.s's p.s: skyped with zhu and was glad she is starting to enjoy her stay in Hangzhou. kinda miss her nonsense over the phone but guess i am more aware of how she felt previously when i am in taiwan. she got me a spects without lenses how silly but reminds me of Arale. thanks for the thoughts hehe.

P.s's p.s's p.s: had a short chat with mommy this afternoon. we got better somehow, i have kinda thought through....somehow. she told me daddy wasn't in a good mood lately after hearing my plans to further study in overseas, he was somehow blaming himself for not being able to afford... feels so...sorry dad. I shouldn't be so selfish.

# 踮起腳尖愛

2011-10-10T22:20:00.004+08:00

Had tuition with boy this afternoon. tried to win his heart by buying strawberry sweetheart from 4leaves and he loves it! it kinda worked out at the beginning but i guess today was a bit harsh on him... we need time to work on it, right now i am just hoping for a pass from him. oh idk if comics work on him but that was what that arouse my interest for chinese when i was his age, we shall see. enjoyed the session with him, hope to see more efforts from him. i know he is having difficulty learning fast and i know i will have to be more patient towards him. No, i must.

Daddy tried making some 'Ribena' using 洛神花 and it turns out to be pretty much like cranberry juice! I've been having some difficulty to sleep early lately... sleeping like 1 plus 2 and waking up around 7? signs of ageing. :<

'In Time With You- 我可能不会爱你' is a nice show. a must-watch show irregardless you are a fan of Ariel Lin's or not. Here's two of my favorite quotations mentioned in the show:

拥有是失去的开始。

pretty true right? and this:

靠山, 山倒
靠人, 人跑
靠自己最好；D

Sometimes I doubt, sometimes I lose faith, and sometimes I find myself losing trust on everything and everyone. so that's what they said, nothing stays the same forever.

Likewise, I will never be the same.

#steppingstones

2011-10-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

Pretty much a family day for me.
Cousin came back from her honeymoon and got me two bottles of OGUMA and a box of green bean pastry, so sweet of her. My niece drew me a drawing of her and me too. In face she drew for almost every of her aunts (lol sound so old) and mine marks her last piece of the day. Cousin booked 4 hotel rooms at sentosa (i don't know which one) for niece's birthday and she's been telling the whole family this afternoon lol so good why i don't get any of this when i at her age.

so i've decided to talk to daddy about my plans to go overseas university and again, i got exactly the same excuse from the previous time i talked to him about my interest in photography. $.$
I wouldn't want to study for the sake of studying, for the sake of good grades, and for the sake of pleasing them. it doesn't mean that when i am doing well on something, i am enjoying it. often than not you guys told me life is like that, you don't always do what you like. sometimes, you don't have a choice. it took me almost 3 years to get back the courage and continue my interest for photography, so how long do i have to take this time round if i missed this opportunity? stop saying it's for my own good when i don't feel anything at all. stop listening to what your friends said, hear me out. for the first time i'm starting to hate this family. don't compare me with your friends' children, i am in my own league.

i need support. but maybe i should be realistic. without my parents, i am nothing.

# Losing

2011-10-08T20:25:00.004+08:00

in love with #blacknwhite

I guess communication and understanding are the key factors to maintain a good relationship in a family. Sometimes we are often so obsessed with what we think is good for the others that we tend to overlook their feelins'. but...don't overdo it. Please. I hate to be paranoid. Please have faith in me.

hope to see you guys soon#

# 4 oversensitive

2011-09-30T11:03:00.005+08:00

LC WIDE x LOMOGRAPHY X-PRO 100 slide.

It was a right choice to miss the maths carnival 2011, somehow, i feel. over the past few days i have been learning how to be an auntie, according to my san yi.

anyway the photoshoot with zhengyu turns out to be pretty sucks. haha. i gotta admit i don't have much talents in photography and its pretty much getting on my nerves. that afternoon turns out to be a bonding session for the both of us? got to know him more :> looking forward to working with him for fyp!

this week was pretty well spent! not so much of rotting as compared to the previous weeks, more of helping out with the housechores and cooking my own meals. shall cook carbonara / pasta when i am back! got the noodle and sauce ready already. oh and of cos red bean soup. made some green bean soup few days back hehe i am a big fan of beans.

oh i got into tourism for my I/S, same class with son finally. i've been a loner for i/s for my past 2 years but now this curse broke finally hehe. and same class for world issue with desmond. weets. luckily classes end at 3pm every monday, most likely teaching boy chinese. i try?

going xia men tomorrow with cousin and will be back next week! but zhu is leaving the day i am coming back sigh. glad that i have alr met her yesterday night with percy pig despite we had a lil tiff over some issues. hope she like the sinful supper from percy and my cute dumbo. gonna see her in nov anyway since shes coming back for her sis's wedding so i guess i wont miss her so much haha. oh and hope my photos turn out good. my roll from spinner snapped when i tried to rewind it damn i think there goes cousin's wedding photos. dear spinner please be good.

on a side note, uncle specially cooked vegetarian fried rice for me today, still tastes so good! :>

#1 till April

2011-09-27T22:24:00.004+08:00

all I need is perseverance and determination, maintain please.

did my grocery shopping this morning at a wet market nearby with my lovely son, so gentleman of him to help me carry those heavy bags of fruits and vegetables. wouldn't have felt so light without him :)

so I also helped out with a little house chore works in the noon. gave up on jogging, need some time to get back to my stamina :O

gonna have my first photoshoot with zhengyu tomorrow. Please turn out to be a good one, severely need motivation. and the sun, please be good and come out tomorrow.

/don't cry, just say fuck and smile. -by unknown.

Nikon Mura.

2011-09-26T22:59:00.004+08:00

Munch munch munch. so Zhu and I went to Nikon Mura @ Cineleisure to satisfy my craving for sashimi salmon. I think I will refrain from eating Japanese food for sometime... really feel like vomiting! Had too much of raw fish slices, omega 3 overdosing.

feelin' a bit blue today I wonder is it because I didn't sleep enough for the past few days zzz.

really hate to say this but if you are going to be so calculative then I am going to count every cents. it is really stupid to quarrel over money issues and I hated it! don't overestimate yourself, you are not as noble as what you think. stop trying to claim credits for every single thing you did, you mean they pay for your living expenses and took care of you over the past 20 years for nothing? stop expecting me to give in to your nonsense i am not your boyfriend nor i am paid to do this shit this is not the way you should treat your family. if you think your boyf is more important than us then go ahead. i am so sick of you.

Sean and Khim

2011-09-26T00:53:00.004+08:00

“ 阿姨今天好漂亮，我以后也要结婚！”

I know sis won't be pleased if she knows I upload her pictures online, so I'll just post a back view of the newly wed :> 祝他们幸福！

I hope I can marry a guy who love me as much as I love him too. but how do you trust your feelings when they can just disappear like that?

Nephews

2011-09-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

Holga 135BC x Lomography X-PRO 200: Prioritize properly.

The sun came out finally! after days of raining. so I decided to do some tanning... at a park nearby, a park where I used to go when I was still a small girl. but apparently two hours tanning is not enough... :< the sun better maintain.

tried Sogurt finally, i'm a all-time-yogurt fan. tried the newly opened outlet at westmall since zhu is going to have some vaccinations at a clinic there before her china trip. eventually I ate a lot today. bread, yogurt, kfc zinger, calbee prawn crackers, some pastry from taiwan, oh and hi koi. enough of food. I went to fetch boy from school, was so happy to see him. still so round hehe, like ah yi like nephew. seriously hate kids who bullied him! nb. feels so useless when he told me what happened. hopes boy learns and be strong.

saw my lil cousin on bus yesterday! He recognizes me before I do. I think we should meet up often. :)

# postponed.

2011-09-21T23:08:00.003+08:00

LC-WIDE x Kodak Gold 400: Grumpy shot.

Turn your empty instax film cartridges into pretty photo frames!
Happened to read an article regarding reusing the empty film cartridges few months back? My cartridges are piling up.... like around 30 of it? Hahah and finally I got to use them for my new room :D still tidying up in progress, hopefully I can finish them before school starts... badly need a good environment to study in. on a side note, my new timetable sucks: 8-5pm everyday except Thursday. Hope I/S falls on the morning and I will get a place in Science of Fragrance. *fingers crossed*

Brought mushroom to Daddy's fish farm yesterday but unfortunately it started pouring when we reached there -.- it was still drizzling when we left, so she wasn't able to tour around :( such a pity. but I doubt she would want to tour around too, the dogs there are quite active yesterday LOL. went to see how Daddy plants his veggies. seeing how much he sweat while planting makes me feels guilty for spending his money... :c

the Sun came out finally :>

Gonna print some photos tomorrow and fetch Aloysius boy from school. Don't rain okay? :)

#2 and 3: Cheesecakes and muffins.

2011-09-19T11:11:00.003+08:00

Failed attempt: Tried baking some muffins yesterday at home but it doesn't rise :( not enough self-raising flour i guess. sigh. downed most of it zzz, so afraid that no one wants to eat it. Daddy showed support by eating one of it. ;D Sis made some cheesecakes yesterday too, downed half too. there goes my diet plan.

P.e.r.s.e.v.e.r.e.!

#1 Muffins

2011-09-18T00:18:00.005+08:00

Holga 135BC x XPRO CHROME 200: 浪来了。

So... I've made some muffins today! No, I should say I've learned to made muffins today hehe. Cheese muffins! Turns out to be quite successful thanks to the self-raising flour, works wonder. Mei tried making some chocolate cupcakes too but it failed. :< shall try making some on my own soon!

and yesterday, I've met up with my dear boss, together with son and garfield! It's been quite some time since I last saw him. The last time was at the hospital when he just finished his op. still so fit as always :) headed bugis on the spur of the moment. Had dinner together and headed to our usual place: Star arcade or whatever it is called. I remember it is something "Star...". Oh! before that we went to buy milk tea from I<3Taimei. Caramel milk tea with grass jelly and pearl. Not worth the money I feel. I still prefer Gongcha/Koi ^3^v

We had fun playing Mario Kart and Bishibashi. I really sucks at playing games tho... and we had BK for supper, sinful much?

and today I went to Queensway to get my sports bra and some sports apparels, with son. spent quite a sum on it. :s dine in at Secret receipe. I had the Chef's salad and he got lasagne (idk the spelling). Turns out bad. :o not going to go there anymore argh.

then tomorrow I will be meeting Zhu for street shots. Chinatown :) Pray hard the weather will be good.

It is also the first day of my diet regime. doubt there will still be people visiting here but i shall continue to blog. had a 30 minutes jog around the neighbourhood and came back panting heavily. Stamina fail. Plus the stretching was unbearable. What a heavy price to pay for not exercising for months. Food wise been okay so far until my supper came in =.= Thanks to mommy for cooking my share for dinner. Last warning zzz.

Love happens

2011-09-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

Diana F+ x Lomography ISO 400:
Out of the twelve shots, I've got only two or maybe three successful shots sigh... feel like getting one argh!

anyway a bit of improvement from yesterday, still rotting but not so much of it. Mommy told me she doesnt mind if I stay single HAHA so that i will be by her side. got seriously pissed off when mommy told me one of her colleagues scolded her stupid b'cos she doesn't know how to send text messages and have no idea how to on the bluetooth. I mean whats the big deal with knowing how to send text messages? if shes comfortable with calls then let her be. i believe most of the 50's and above are like her, unaware of how to send text msges or unfamiliar with the phone functions. hate it when people make nasty comments on my family or friends. *angry*

to make her feel better I offered her the facial masks I got in Taiwan. she's pretty enjoying it hehe. as for Daddy, I think he likes me to sit beside him and watch Teevee together. love the quality time spent with them :)

ROTZ

2011-09-14T00:13:00.003+08:00

my all-time fav. position at home.

Sucks to say this but I am really rotting my day away for the past few days sigh. went over to Mogu's house this afternoon and she whipped up a simple lunch (pretty much like a western meal) plus a dessert (my fav. red bean soup) for me. sweet. feel so sinful when she eat so lil and I eat so much. went for a hair cut while waiting for her red bean to be ready... Once again I fell for her words, believing her taste once again but she disappoint me again. :( k la my fringe become a bit kiddish for me blah but she claims it was nice. lookin' forward to our Crystal jade Korean bbq date :>

Shall start to tidy up my room tomorrow!

so long...

2011-09-07T22:32:00.002+08:00

Ok i'm back in Sg for three weeks already, time flies. so I went to visit a physician at Bukit Timah earlier today with Mommy, for my back and her shoulder. We had acupuncture and 拔罐（？） together. Like mother like daughter huh. We had late lunch @ some eatery nearby. Indian/Thai/Muslim food or whatever it is called. Bad choice to lunch there as we are not familiar with the food plus the person who take our orders are not giving any good recommendations k whatever. I ordered mutton chop and Mom got Fish Fillet. Been craving for mutton ever since Dad's friend bought some mutton curry back from M'sia. sad max :< wasn't as nice as I thought. plus I can't imagine how much calories I have swallowed. what a sinful meal. Mommy insisted hers looks healthier than mine ==

Recalled the times we (Mommy sis and me) used to have fried chicken cutlet every weekend without fail at BPP, probably 3-4 years ago?

Thanks Mommy, you're great.

/you and the dream.

Pretty Claudia

2011-08-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

Happy day, happy girl.

It was a great night spent with the seniors, Judy and Claudia. We had burgers for dinner @ Nineting, and I had Johnny English. I could hardly finish it... big serving, plus I am still full after senior's dim sum treat for tea time today. shucks. I didn't enjoy the meal as much I thought I would, but nonetheless I appreciate their presence today. So after the heavy meal, I've decided to walk back to the dormitory instead of taking the public transport, as usual. This time was with Judy, and I managed to psycho her :P we had a heart-to-heart talk, and I bet I will miss those good times with her when I'm back.

我　：我回去就没有人陪你走路会宿舍，你会不会想我？
Ｊ　：我想我因该找不到像你这样的了。

sometimes I feel that she and I are somehow alike... and that's probably the reason why we are so close.

我：　如果你要结婚你一定要告诉我！我一定会飞来台湾帮你拍结婚照！
Ｊ：　我是有在想如果要结婚的时候，是不是应该发一封请帖给卓大摄影师让她帮我们拍结婚照。

I am really fortunate to know a friend like her.

Not to forget, I've met Kitty and her boyf this afternoon for lunch. She is someone I know through Ethan's fan club forum since sometimes ago. yeah I was still young by then :P We've been chatting online for some time and we thought it would be good to meet up before I leave next week. I was still worried for events of awkward silences and buddha blesses, everything went so natural! ;)

Tomorrow, or maybe today (it's already 12:35am now and imma still stuck in front of my lappy) is my official last day of internship *yay*! But I got a seminar to give, and I am so darn scared of the evaluation by Prof, prays hard that everything goes smoothly.

Happy 46th Birthday Singapore.

2011-08-09T23:07:00.006+08:00

H.O.M.E

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is Home, truly
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where that river always flows
This is home, surely
As my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone
For this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That homes about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

Mommy's girl

2011-08-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

我们在寻找童年时遗失的东西。

Untitled.

2011-08-02T21:46:00.005+08:00

L.(M).V.E

Spin your heart!

2011-07-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

A new member to my analogue collection- the Spinner 360°

k I'm losing interest in the research imma doing now already :< pretty sucks, imagine counting down from Monday to Friday. argh. Looks forward to every weekend nowadays, I've got 4 more weekends here before going back to sg, shall keep them all occupied! I don't want to spend my time in the dormitory, *emo*

not to forget, time to start writing my report and resume. shall start soon!
/p.s: i'm looking forward to this saturdayyy.

Monday blue

2011-07-18T20:01:00.002+08:00

went to several places over the past few days: 淡水，台北小巨蛋，忠孝敦化 & 乌来. not to mention, F.O.O.D. tell me how to not gain weight in Taiwan? :<
Mister donuts, N.Y bagels smoked salmon, barbecued mochi, mango+strawberry ice, steamboat & etc! I think my appetite becomes bigger over the past few days, tummy going rounder and rounder.

this is the best 'hug' I've ever gotten! thanks brooo. ;)

Life is beautiful.

2011-07-12T19:38:00.006+08:00

Spent my lunch with Kim song, and afternoon with Irene, life is beautiful.

Haven't met this guy for almost 1 year!? Finally I got to meet him, but in Taipei. Haa. He was still complaining that he have to come all the way to Taipei just to have a meal with me. heheh. we had some hiccups in between but luckily we still manage to meet each other. We had Japanese food for lunch @ 肥前屋, his treat :P In return, I bought him 青蛙撞奶　and 割包 :D

tho the meet up was very short but I am really happy to see him again, still so cute as always. shall look up for him again when I am back in Singapore! ^^

Tainan trip

2011-07-10T21:04:00.005+08:00

This week's been pretty relaxing as I got to travel to Tainan for two days with the seniors, so no lab session for two days *yay* We were there for a conference, I mean they. Ha. having a bike in Taiwan is really convenient, especially when you are out of Taipei. Plus, having someone who's familiar in that area is definitely a bonus! so much time and money saved for better food :> brought my new toy LC-WIDE along too, can't wait to see the photos! The trip was great, except that the conference is pretty boring. I personally prefer Tainan over Taipei, maybe not just me. I just feel more relaxing there, and would definitely love to go there again if someone's going! Oh, not to forget, the train journey is so long! approx 4.5hours to reach there?! it's like taking plane back to Sg. :O too bad I am only there for two days... but i'm satisfied! ^.<

and yesterday, I went to dan shui for a photoshoot session, or rather a workshop by Lomography, with some Lomographers. the weather's been pretty poor, it drizzles a bit and it stops. dark clouds over the sky, sigh. but it was fun, walking from one end to another end twice!? the second trip was made specially for 阿给. this is definitely nicer than the one I ate previously, i like! worth my sweat!

Happy time flies, back to reality tomorrow.
who can chase away my monday blues?

Lomography journey.

2011-07-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th to myself;
this year I receive:
wishes, first film roll developed, lc-wide, and most importantly, Mommy and Daddy's support for me towards photography/lomography.

thanks for everything which are happening or had happened here. :>

The above three photos are the ones I took with my Holga last Saturday @ 宜兰乌石港. out of the 36 photos in a roll these are the only 3 successful shots. Buddha blesses.

Lc-wide took my breath away <3

/P.s:
Dear boss says: HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH LING! I LOVE YOU! MUACKS
<3

Fucked up max.

2011-06-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

Once again, Mommy took all my nonsense. Sorry Mommy, I shouldn't vent my anger on you.

untitled.

2011-06-22T20:50:00.007+08:00

These few days been... can't wait for this week to end.
Prof said he see little motivation in me, I admit. I am getting lost here, not with the directions but with the work I am dealing with now. y'know, I sucks at I.T stuff, and I have completely no interest for that. but I don't take that as an excuse, I was just hoping you could be a little more patient when you are teaching me. Apparently, you took it otherwise. Who's giving nonsense now? Here am I trying to learn as much as I could but there you are giving me all the asshole attitude.

I am not giving up...
打不死的蟑螂精神？
even so, I still feel :( need to pop some happy pills!

Anyway, this two kids belong to my room mate's friend. They surprised me with their fluent Chinese! You wouldn't have notice they are Indonesians if you just judge from their convo! Took polaroid and I love a photo particularly. But the boy wants it, no matter how hard I tried to persuade. Took 3 but he wanted 2, and 1 of it is the one I wanted badly. I gave him still eventually. He's being tactful. I'd used two polaroids to exchange their smiles, good deal! :) by the way, they are ah jie and ah ya. not sure which 'jie' and 'ya' in Chinese characters tho.

Keep goin'

Three,

2011-06-18T22:03:00.007+08:00

A bike ride to kick-start my weekends! ;>
Head off to Cosco with Renwei and his room mate this morning, i love that place! y'know, I always spend more time on food than on shopping, and not to forget, sleeping. :P I would love to go there again! Perhaps on my own? or with a girl of cos. y'know guys don't shop like we do. Anw, I bought a dozen of Zesperi golden kiwi. oh god can't resist.

Korean cuisine for lunch! Had 石锅拌饭！yes~i'm lovin' it. let these pictures do the talking.

Give me a time machine.

2011-06-16T22:18:00.006+08:00

It’s all about Molly – 每個人的心中都住著一位小孩

It's Thursday! *sniff* I smell weekends coming! ;D anyway, today marks the second month of being in Taiwan, I am still kickin' hard. Surprisingly, time passes so fast here. Tho sometimes several setbacks make me feel like giving up or running away, but luckily I went through this :> Pei said I'm becoming stronger, am I?

I am enjoying everything now: regardless whether I am going out alone, or even the bad times here, every part is learning progress for me.
\take it slowly.

It's been 1 year...

2011-06-11T23:31:00.005+08:00

今天是个特别的日子。

Temple-hopped! 龙山寺，青山寺，松山慈祐宫。
My legs are breaking, been out from 11 till 9. :O I ate quite a lot today too... but I have decided to call off jogging tomorrow morning. I know I am gaining weight, but.. 算了。:(

今天的晚餐：药炖排骨汤，胡椒饼，都在饒河夜市！好好吃啊！下次一定要试吃羊肉的！

哆啦Ａ梦的小绵羊，酷不酷？！

在天国的你，过得好不好？

Dragonboat fesitival.

2011-06-06T23:23:00.003+08:00

今天我决定了，去学习——感恩。

感谢帮助我们的人，是他们让我们获得新生；
感谢伤害我们的人，是他们磨练了我们的意志；
感谢欺骗我们的人，是他们增加了我们的智慧；
...感谢鼓励我们的人，是他们给了我们勇气；
感谢嘲笑我们的人，是他们让我们有了前进的动力；
感谢重伤我们的人，是他们磨练了我们的人格；
感谢传授我们知识的人，是他们引指我们前进的道路。

端午节快乐：〉

3 days break!

2011-06-05T13:48:00.006+08:00

I came to have this realization since last night:
even best friends grumble about each other's bad points in front of other friends, so let alone normal friends or probably closer friends? I mean, this is not backstabbing or whatever shit, this is just how we feel at times. Nothing's wrong, no one is perfect. I do complain about my friends at times, but they are still my friends. Sometimes I choose not to tell them because I don't want them to change because of my opinions, but that does not apply to Besties.

I am glad I am able to speak up my mind with besties. Besties take time to become besties, they don't come from nowhere. From primary/secondary school till now!, girls power ;>

I love them :)

Doubt.

2011-06-03T09:03:00.004+08:00

T.G.I.F;

It's June!

2011-06-01T22:35:00.003+08:00

Croissant! 牛角面包 <3

Greedy.

2011-05-31T21:53:00.005+08:00

Matcha w Red beans chased away my Monday blues :)

Crepes & Love

2011-05-29T23:09:00.004+08:00

Taipei 101, Eslite & 师大夜市 :>

I swear I friggin' regret skipping dinner for the past one month! now gastralgia is haunting me like a bitch. -.- anyway I have started doing experiments and learning data analysis since Thursday, it's been fun yet tiring, but definitely better than reading the deadly papers.

well it's Monday again tomorrow, shall go get my beauty sleep! :D

/the outcome will be different when you look at things differently.

Once bitten,

2011-05-26T23:32:00.002+08:00

Be thankful for who and what is around you, one day they might just disappear from your world without a reason;

Hear me.
For once, hear me talk?
I'm sick of being an audience,
tired of being a rubbish bin for everyone to vent your unhappiness,
and bottling up mine.
Sorry.
I'm tired. :,)

Smile

2011-05-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

Be happy.

/an apple a day keeps the doctor away;

Moody moo.

2011-05-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

It sucks to feel cheated. It sucks to feel efforts gone into drain. It sucks to feel lonely. It sucks to feel uncertainty. It sucks to feel hopeless.

五分埔＋饒河夜市！

2011-05-15T01:02:00.006+08:00

Thanks to my room mate Lisa, she made my Saturday! :> finally a Saturday not alone.

Surprisingly, I didn't spend a lot on shopping today, merely bought a top for sis! I bet this will be a shopping heaven for sis and all, not that much for me tho. Anyway I had a lot of food today! Cold noodles, Smelly Toufu recommended by senior, & Papaya milk w honey, not to forget my sandwich for breakfast. Now Mommy should be convinced I am not starving here.

Don't be deceived by its appearance! Tastes so differently from the Japanese one, soba sauce replaced by sesame sauce. & friendly lady boss! I looked fat here tho, but who cares. heheh.

As the evening falls... dinner time! :>
I had smelly toufu (again*) at 口吅(xuan)品, recommended by 小裕学长！大肠臭豆腐～下次一定要试吃鸭血（黑豆干）！& Papaya milk w honey for dessert ^^ spotted cool dog there. colored hairs, wow. reminds me of clown.

/P.S: Happy Birthday to Mei. <3

Devil x Dessert Cake

2011-05-11T22:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY-DAY

Here comes my long-awaited Devil x Dessert (D2) cake- Macarons! :> bought this for my lab mates and room mates! it's been so long since I wanted to try this ever since I saw its recipe featured on I-weekly~ Finally can have a taste of it!

Hearty Macarons <3 -
Caramel, Matcha, Blackberry, Mango, Raspberry, Hazelnut, Chocolate, Egg&milk

This is what we do when Prof is not in-house, camwhoring :DDD didn't take picture with everyone tho. but I must say, taking pictures can never make everyone high! ;) the three of us are pretending to be 'sitting' :P

Act cute once ><Prof will be away for this week so I guess everyone's pretty not in the mood to do anything regarding R-e-s-e-a-r-c-h. Goush. I need to get back to first week's momentum, I think I'm slacking too much! :x not to forget there's an interim report I've got to submit next month. ahhhh.

Shall slack this week and start my engine next week, I must! ***
guess I am being over-sensitive these days... :<

Green Matcha caramel! :>

Movie alone

2011-05-08T01:23:00.004+08:00

Today has been a long day~ went out since 12pm, itchy backside :p but anyway, I went to 龙山寺　today. Been looking forward to go there ever since I watched Monga, and yes, alone. Almost all in lab have went back home to prepare for Mother's day celebration, but I'm stuck in Taiwan, sorry Mommy :( feels especially bad when she told me, "aye, tomorrow is Mother's day, but you are not in Sg." promise I will get something good for ya! :) remember the night before Mother's day last year, I was busy preparing Mother's day gift for Bb and Mommy, now I'm glued to my laptop. =x I need to adjust my body clock!

I realized praying in Taiwan needs some knowledge too! Thanks to the ah yi(s) I'd met today, a mi tuo fo.
I'd went to an underground shopping street too, and lastly Xi men ding again. Decided to watch Fast and Furious 5! and wow, it's really nice. Vin Diesel & Paul Walker are new hot stuff, the female leads are prettyayes too. Good experience to watch movie alone, tho I'd tried before in Sg.

BUT after the movie, when I was about to go back to my dormitory, my bag snapped-.- when I was walking out from the lift. Super maluuuuu* please. so I randomly walk about and got a new bag, kinda regret now cos' it was hard to match clothes. but that's the cheapest I can find, ~35SGD? Now I shall try to refrain buying things from XMD, seriously broke.

Anw, I did a lil change to myself yesterday! notice the curls on my hair? Yes, finally I'd perm my hair after so many years! It was kinda absurd cos I was just passing by D'color salon and I met a hairstylist Andy. I remember its been ages since a male hairstylist cut my hair. He's damn cheeky cute. Haa, but anyway it turns out good to me. tho I looked rounder and older, but I think is a good try. $.$ with the amount spent.

Andy*

Before

AfterI'm a lil not used to curls but I'm starting to love it! :D

After the convo with Silly, I realized we are more attracted to older guys. and after 3 years, the four of us are still singe. k this is totally random.

/P.S: Happy Momma's day to Bb & Momma! :) I love you two.

S,

2011-05-05T18:46:00.009+08:00

You don't love a girl because she is pretty,
she is pretty because you love her.

It'd been some years, and only last night I got to know the actual reason why we broke up. Thanks boy, least I know you did loved me before.

/P.S: Computer language or fish gills experiment?
/P.S's P.S: Should I cut my fringe?

Stress level up.

2011-05-01T20:26:00.005+08:00

地图＋ＭＰ３＝新店，碧潭。

最近觉得压力很像每天都在累积，感觉很不好。
真的不希望来这里是个错的选择－除了ｒｅｓｅａｒｃｈ，其它的东西真的都在习惯中。
一个人出去，一个人迷路，一个人问路，一个人去购物。　ａｌｌ　ｂｙ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ．
真的很讨厌……ＲＥＳＥＡＲＣＨ。　
或许我讨厌的不是ｒｅｓｅａｒｃｈ，而是自己的无能。
算了啦，ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｇｅｎｅｓ，　ｙｅａｈ？

This is my best photo for today, finally a decent smile.
I'm tired.

First Sunday spent alone

2011-04-24T16:31:00.002+08:00

Guess who am I talking to? ^^

Now that I'd found a place with a stronger wifi sense, my butt is stuck there. :x I guess I need to start planning for my every weekends and after-lab activities to make this trip more fruitful! window shopping would be better than staying in dormitory surfing the net definitely! was somehow convinced by Percy* that I really need to go out explore. need some plannings. so I go out later, to 公馆 walk walk ^^ so at least my first Sunday won't be @ dorms rotting :D but... after downloading 新兵日记 !

shall end of today's post with this picture! ^^ my cutie piggggg.

SUGAR RUSH

2011-04-20T22:19:00.003+08:00

First post in Taiwan! :)
Spent my first Saturday (alone) @ 西门町。 ^^ went to 公馆 yesterday with my roommate Maria! and I'm glad that I remember the way to and fro from my dormitory! what a relief phew* anyway, kinda regretted for not bringing my camera with me today! :( on a happy note, I've bought my first Adidas jacket after so long. I got to know Tommy too! It feels good to know someone from Singapore. Good buy.

Yesterday was my first seminar and Prof seems pretty satisfied., I wonder is it how he really feels or he's just 手下留情？　Next seminar is on Friday, not really looking forward :( piles of scientific papers waiting for me. BUT next week's seminar is gonna be accompanied by some seniors, die together? :P '

Surprisingly, I'm the youngest in this school surprisingly. Here, everyone is either studying their Bachelor, Master or PhD degree, but I'm not even a poly graduate :O so actually I wouldn't want to trouble them to bring me out, trying my best to remember the routes in school & etc. now I find maps handy :P learning how to interpret maps still. heheh.

Anw, Happy birthday to Zhu (yesterday) and Jiejie. <3

好朋友。

2011-04-15T20:17:00.006+08:00

Dear Girl

2011-04-11T22:15:00.003+08:00

Skype with Mushroom! ^^
I miss her so much! Glad to know that she's doing well over in Wuhan :) Hope I will do well in Taiwan too!

Jayce Wong!
Thanks for the two-dollar ♥, energy bar, bicycle Tee and small card. aww, and thanks for delivering to my house too! :)

Filial piety.

2011-04-10T13:04:00.007+08:00

Palawan beach on Friday, with polymates :) fruitful trip 'cos I look tanner, i like!

my new <3! goes well with white porridge.

It's my last Sunday in SG, next Sunday I will be in Taiwan loh! went to visit grandma earlier this morning, I should visit her more often. met one handicapped uncle on wheelchair downstairs. misunderstood him for wanting to cross the road when he's trying to fetch a cab. :$
damn those cabbies who ignore the handicaps/elderly-s nowadays. I mean the cab fare is inclusive of customers service, but I don't see any in them. Sucks. Luckily the cab driver Yuan called was kind enough to help uncle to get onto the cab.

Uncle is cooking Jap curry now! ^^

Mum: Newcastle UK good mah?
Me: not very good leh.
Mum: Why not good? orhbit huh.
"H-A-H-A-H-A-!"

Leaving soon.

2011-04-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

可爱的PUG

Everyone now is making me so 舍不得 SG! Humph*
I've started writing my essay already! ^^ I sure got plenty to write... :x

Sentosa tomorrow, excited* prays hard the weather will be good!

/P.S: Thanks Jx & Garfield for the bag. <3

Ken.O.K.!

2011-04-03T20:00:00.008+08:00

This.is.shitty.

Instead of doing pre-research assignments, I've been pa-pa-zao-ing! Supposed everyone has started their essays except me :x Enough of 'tomorrow-then-start', procrastination is a bitch.

Went to visit dear boss yesterday! I was happy/upset to see him; happy because I haven't seen him since exams were over, and upset because I see him in pain :( But glad that he was recovering!

Ritz Apple Strudel yumyum*

went to town after hosp. visit, so sick of shopping so we ended up with eat.drink.gossip.walk.

This peekture looks sweet! <3

Spent a wonderful Saturday with Hui & Ting, my beloved girls. ^^ an advance mini farewell meal for me before I go off to Taiwan for my internship? Marche, their treat! :D

Nice atmosphere nice food and nice accompany, what else more can I ask for?

my pretty 'waitress-es' of the day!

/Rosti with smoked salmon, never gonna get smoked salmon again! :x but shredded potatoes taste nice with sour cream! damn fattening but I don't care! It's my first meal of the day only :P
This pizza has a long name, but I forgot what is it. Er, something rocket? :P

Gong-cha as dessert :x okay I feel guilty, I actually forgot to bring my wallet out even though the bill is on them. Super paiseh. :$

Dear mind, please start reading scientific papers.

Gray

2011-03-31T16:03:00.002+08:00

I don't want to be like this :(

If only burning all the scientific papers will help me understand them, I would be more than willing to do so.

Happy rainbow

2011-03-27T22:33:00.004+08:00

Finally done with this last night, worth my one night's beauty- sleep. Colouring-is-not-easy. Pretty please with this 'flower pot', brings us back so much of our memories of B.

Who? Angry Percy Pig* & Zhu

When? Yesterday

What? Catchup session & food!

Where? Orchard Ion/Prolouge/Paradise dynasty 8 different flavoured xiao long bao.

<3 Baby Zeron!

Kids are realistic, they don't bother to please you by pretending to come closer to you or play with you if he/she feels uncomfortable/forgotten who you were, and that hurts.

Double-layered rainbow! (if you take a closer look to the pic..) is it hinting me something? but whatever it is, this has definitely lighten up my day!

off to bed, lessons tomorrow. nights love.

Marina Barage

2011-03-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

I'd spent my lovely friday's night with bunch of awesome poly friends, it's been awhile since I see them ever since they are having CPTC training. It's a pity that Ken can't join us :c hope to see him soon, and hope his back will be fine soon!

We decided to go Marina barage to have a picnic there, in the night! :D

Pizzas.sandwiches.chocolate milk.soya milk.chips

guilt-filled gathering.

light sticks.camera.action.

regretted for not charging my camera this morning, run out of batt when we are starting to have fun! argh. shall meet them again soon!

In the process in making a pot of memories... 7 dwarfs! looks easy but I had a hard time to draw them on this pot. next will be the colouring part, hope it turns out nice!

Thanks Cain for driving us to and fro! ^^
/Pa Bro.

/looks like some insect eh? :p mask rider inspired.

love this!

Gotten back results today;

i'd tried my best, and it's worth it.

thanks to some people who tried to pull me down which in turn makes me stronger. Not to forget friends who are always there for me, 2 more semesters to end my poly life woots!

Days without CPTC training.

2011-03-22T22:09:00.006+08:00

11:11

Scientific papers.scientific papers.scientific papers.
Results releasing on this coming Friday pray double* hard. /I want to enjoy this Friday's outing with my long-time-no-see clique!

Shopping daily necessities with mommy and sister earlier today. (Luv) Mommy seems to be more excited than I do, or perhaps more worried that I wasn't able to take care of myself over there. aiya :x anw flight confirmed, 16th April. meanwhile I'm going to enjoy my free time now :D

Thanks Mommy, I know I'd spent quite a sum lately, promised I will cut down my spending :(

和阿公约会去！

木-苹果 @ Iluma

Toh & Poh
Bugis / Iluma / Starbucks

I'd love apple crumble cheesecake without the apple more!

Sudden urge to make something for my son ;) Hamburgersssss yum.

I need some rest, mentally.

...Stanley ♥

so near...

2011-03-18T11:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes what the things you are persuing
may be what you are better off without.

2 years already

2011-03-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

feelin' old.

Signs of 2012

2011-03-12T21:58:00.006+08:00

PRAY.FOR.JAPAN.
Earthquake, Tsunami, explosion of atomic plant. What could be worst than this?
I got a strong feelin' 2012 is really coming, is the world coming to an end? Nobody knows what happens tomorrow, and guess the only thing we can do now is to cherish and pray for the best, fingers crossed.

Pancakes for tea-time ^^

New pupps in temple!

OH! and met up with my silly girl yesterday at our usual place. :)

attempts on slow shutter.

miss u miss u,
can you hear me?

F-A-M-I-L-Y

2011-03-12T01:16:00.004+08:00

T.I.R.E.D:
of going out everyday &
spending money like flowing water. :(
Mommy is grumbling that I'd overspent just this week alone! :x
I am not going anyway except with Mommy/Family
to school
& to collect my visa.
grr, the frequency of going out looks high still :/

April spells the start of Taiwan internship, really scared but I really want to try and know where am I standing. It would be a good experience still no matter how it turns out to be, though I think I'm gonna miss home mad!

Got this Canon Powershot G12 from I.T fair yesterday, and Zhu got her 60D. I'm one step nearer to my dream, and knowing that I've got the support from family is more than enough :) the rest is up to determination.

可能是过不久就要去台湾了，突然很想多花时间陪妈咪爹迪姑丈－家人。
这两天和妈咪聊了很多，感觉上很像更了解妈咪了。
以前我都很少花时间陪她，很少体贴她，很少或从来都没有试着去了解她
我不想后悔，不想发生在贝比的事情再发生在我身边的人身上
所以，加油了卓慧琳
为自己努力，为心爱的人努力，ＧＯ！

messy post

2011-03-09T22:06:00.003+08:00

Should I be thankful to skip CPTC for my research training? I heard they are having a tough life there, having lecture notes thicker than Harry Potter book? fingers crossed. :x

Pictures speaks a thousand words, I am lazy to type.

Jiaxing's mommy cook this stingrayyyyy :D spicy but nice.

I am learning swimming! ^^ with Zhu as my mentor.

Guilt-filled Cheezecakeee :/

shall end off this post with today's dinner :}

姑丈特地为我煮的晚餐，看起来很特别，但我却感受到满满的爱心。

Poly class gathering

2011-03-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

I just had an awesome class gathering/BBQ/stayover last night at the loft! and surprisingly I was able to resist the temptation of cigarettes and liquor. Supposed I cannot see them for quite some time as they will be busy with their CPTC training and me stuck in school. argh.

The days to Taiwan is coming nearer and nearer. damn I'm having mixed feelings. Anyway I really find myself dumb to believe some people. I must be really kind. pftttt.

EXAMS :(

2011-02-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be here to blog but I need to de-stress :( I don't know why I feel so stupid now. Fuck. Exams faster over please.

Photo can't lie

2011-02-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

Visit to Silly house yesterday with Ting, and got to see Jingde. Wow been hearing this name since secondary school, of cos during some girls' gossips :P Forehead is our title of the day :D

Happy CNY 2011

2011-02-05T00:30:00.004+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year 兔 You :)

Pretty special day 2 with lots of pictures taken with grandparents, cousins and friends, and tiring day of cos.
Morning came darl's visit, we never visit each other's house before during any festive seasons so this time was pretty glad that she invited me to her house. next week next week! I wanna see your childhood photos.

went to Grandparents house during noon. For the first time I find the visit interesting 'cos I never stop taking pictures with cousins and ahgong ahma.
next stop to uncle Gary's house at pasir ris. took a picture with his grandson en ping. :D damn cute. Head to steven's bro house next, wah I sound so old when my nieces and nephews call me 'ah yi' :O but they are cute! ><
Last stop to amelia's house :D thanks for the invite! ^^ no pictures taken though..

OH and it's the first time I attempted to wear a dress, not very used to dressing like this but yeah I supposed it's a good start? ^^

Trials.

2011-01-30T20:36:00.003+08:00

I've got the damn urge to go for a holiday or something these few days, or maybe just going some place to slack for the whole day. I need a break. Leave me alone.

Failure

2011-01-20T15:41:00.002+08:00

Haven't blog for one week plus, hectic week plus laziness.
I realize I've got lots of assignments undone! :( cny is coming. man its gonna be busyyyyyyyy.

On a happy side of note,
Happy 20th to LeeCP!

Bygones be bygones

2011-01-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

Perhaps I'm oversensitive.Perhaps I was being jealous over you.Perhaps things just now the way I thought.Perhaps I should persevere longer.Perhaps I should try harder.Perhaps its time to treat myself better.

First post for 2011

2011-01-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

2010 is over.
It's already the 4th day of 2011, which means holiday has ended and new school term has started. New term started with Deutsch lesson. Man, now I understand why Frau Vivian says "Deutsch is not for common folks."

Been meeting up Silly and Ting often lately, and we're planning to have steamboat at Silly's house on 大年初三！^^

if you want a perfect girl, go buy a barbie doll...

Last day of 2010

2010-12-31T10:43:00.001+08:00

& I spent my last day of 2010 with my beloved Percy pig and Zhu. To be precise, we met on the 30th Dec, after our gym session @ Paragon. Awesome much, we had our dinner at Ion. Made a last minute decision by heading to Marine barage after dinner, double awesome.

*bend your knees* *certain angle* *winks*

My Love <3

It's Daddy and Mommy's wedding anniversary. No special plans, we'll just have a simple dinner at home together. It's been awhile since everyone get together.

Goal today: COMPLETE PBL2 PPT!

Last Christmas

2010-12-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well-spent week, meeting friends here and there.

First to mention: Silly and Ting @ Town.
The day we left panjang :) and I'd made Bread Pudding(!) felt a great sense of accomplishment :b Ting made some fillets too!

Spent my Xmas eve with Zhu ^^ she went over to my house and stayed overnight.
oh and we'd changed our phones too. htc wildfire(her) and nokia e5(me). considered a hassle decision for the both of us, but thankfully we didn't regret after all. It's considered a great buy for me, I just need a simple phone anyway.

Oh, and earlier I met up with dear Reney to pass her Christmas gift. Not something expensive but something that touches her heart :) Sincerity matters, right? and please my dear, it's 12 years of friendship, not 7! must be because you don't have enough sleep. Tsk, try to not sleep so late okay? (I'm also sleeping late these days :x)

"cui-ttm" and "my eyebags tell you everything". ♥

Not to forget, I saw Mr.Chan! Wow, darl says I looked like I saw my idol. :P

Met up with Mrs.Tan, Boontso at CCK on the Christmas! No pictures taken though, but managed to catch up with them :> and yes I had my salmon too!:>

Head to Bugis to meet my boys. Initially I thought it would be a boring session, but surprisingly it became very enjoyable! On a side note, we actually spend most of our time in arcade :x

Jingyuan caught this and gave it to me as my Christmas gift, so I decided to name it as "Yuan-yuan". Hehehe ^^

My lil bros ♥

Met up with Joy today, and had fun too! Pictures up soon. I'm going to Daddy's fish farm again tomorrow yay!

Girls give and forgive,
Guys get and forget.
-by don't-know-who.

Term 1 over.

2010-12-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

Common test is finally over, and here comes my two weeks break, though we still have to prepare for tests and assignments.

I'd made a lot of silly mistakes in this common test, it can really be very discourging but you just gonna stay postive and get over it. "First time is understandable, second time is unforgettable." Well said by bro. Anw, I caught "The Chronicles of Narnia & dawn...(sthg) after my last paper with beloved pri. schl friend Avalyn Ong. Nice show, and not to forget, Capian is more handsome as compared to the previous episode. ^^ Thanks girl, for your advance christmas gift, like it a lot, really. Thanks for the thoughts.

Had supper at 163 with silly and ting. Stingray is awesome. Stayed over at silly's house after supper, a random idea from don't-know-who. Tired, but no doubt, it's fun. Our pyjamas night. shall meet them on wednesday again :)

with her pyjamas, snoopyyy.

Our shag faces taken not long after we wake up.

went to m'sia next morning, first time in my life man. The new Jansport comes in handy as the Dickies one is spoiled. I'm so damn impressed by some persistant salesperson, nice experience with zhu :)

Believe it can be done

2010-12-09T01:05:00.001+08:00

I guess today's failure is a wake-up call for me, or to remind me where I am standing now. Total failure. I'm really way behind time for many things, got to run with time now. Common tests next week, I don't want my grades to suffer because of my emotions.

Maintain, Huiling.

continue to do ur best :) no matter how ppl bring u down, u will definitely rise up again if u try non stop. ♥, xiong.

tired of trying when people seems to be more convinced with what things appeared to be. whatever it is, I'm gonna face it.
GO, Common Test, i will conquer you.

dear police, can you please catch 'em all?

Last day

2010-11-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

This is my ink painting work. Topic is: What is love?
I think, love is the memories we shared together, good or bad, they are still part of me. Well this is last week's work, and this week we did Cataloguing on Rock and Roll. Cool. I'm gonna try it again during holidays!
Sad to say, today is the last lesson for this Arts and Design elective. Time flies. I think I'd made a right choice by choosing this elective! I'd proved something wrong. :D Also I'd met some nice people in my class, and not to forget, beloved Ms.Loh.

Huiling you're very patient in this module.

I was merely trying my best heh. Well pray hope that they'll moderate the marks so that I will have better grade.
Common test is around the corner, time to mug?
Yes.

Pretending,

2010-11-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Recent's incident has caught me in dilemma, really.

People say the best survival skill is actually good acting skills, just pretend to be in good terms with everyone. But,
if only you can pretend for a lifetime, else stop pretending, it's not taking you anywhere.

Not everyone is blind.
:)

oh well, I'll carry on my way of life, but def. not pretending.
appreciate people who's always behind me, supports me, and loving me <3

You've to love someone before you hate them, so thanks for loving me. :>

Live up to your name.

2010-11-21T15:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Ethan, I'm so proud of you!
民国99年11月20日西园2010年，第47届金马奖最佳男主角阮经天
影帝，你当之无愧。
这个奖，也实至名归。

I'm not paid to tolerate your nonsense.
I hope I was wrong, I hope our f/s is not so fragile.

no one will rememeber any of your good doings, they will only remember the mistake you'd made.

Play clay day.

2010-11-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

This is getting bad, I've been slacking for the past few days. Damn, time flies. It's the 4th week of school already, which means common test and those small tests are around the corner! :c I need to studyyyyy.

my cells are contaminated, argh. hopefully this lil mistake will make me have better lab practice.

Art Anatomy.

2010-11-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

Praises do wonders,
esp. when someone really need a lil confidence in his/her work.
Thanks for saying "not everyone is a Picaso".

"don't give up, it's too early for that".

Talent is one thing, hard work is a different thing.

Happy 28th Birthday Ethan ♥

Happy Deepavali all.

2010-11-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

Daddy's fishfarm :>

Like! :> after tanning.

两点。 Jack Russell.

dried stingray's tail, very long!

& LJX :>

Well-spent day at Daddy's fish farm... tanning. Sun burnt is pain, yet I felt a sense of accomplishment. From 11-2pm, no joke. Poor bro, he's sun burnt too. For some reasons, I think my Dad is cool, and manly. I love him, and I love mom too! plus uncle. To sum up, I love my family, and I'm happy with what I have now. :)

Angry pftttttt.

2010-11-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

天气好到很像在无视我的心情。

New semester

2010-10-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

Thanks Jx & Kenny :)

My wire sculpture which took me so long to do!

It's the first week of the new semester, not a very good starting though. I got a particular feeling that this semester is not gonna be easy even though I only have three examinable modules, the rest are all laboratory practicals. Not to forget mentioning, I'd also made up my mind to go Taiwan for my internship next year, alone. Hopefully it turns out good? :> I shall brush up my practical skills.

& yes, shit happens. but I do hope to overcome every subsequent barriers on my own ability.

Suntan fails

2010-10-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

Last day of holiday, I don't know why I'm not looking forward to tomorrow at all. Well, spent my Sunday with Silly, to suntan. We hardly tan for 15 minutes, and the Sun went hiding again. I see the need to learn swimming, almost every friend around me knows how to swim :( ends the suntan session with a heavy downpour, and we had our lunch with Ting. Aww, so sweet of her to come down to Bukit Panjang specially just to have lunch with us. Also, I've got no idea why I'm so into yogurt recently! tried Glacious just now, not that bad. I prefer Yigloo though! what's next?

oh and fuck my mood was spoiled 7/10. so what if we've got the same blood flowing in our body? & so what if you're older than me? Please, you want the respect, show it to me you worth it. Call me a bitch? I won't call you any names, but it just makes me wonder, are you really my sister? If you want to drag feelings with me, then I'd rather you fuck off to somewhere. Don't try to cross my limit. Pftttt.

/P.S: it's really nice to know that there are actually people who's there willing to hear you rant, much much appreciated. Steven and Jx.

Saturday night

2010-10-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I just don't feel like going out for the next two days. Haze? I doubt. 'cos I forsee I'll hardly stay home when school starts. Oh, and also hardly have enough rest. I always do last minute work, hopefully this semester changes. I guess I need to adjust my holiday mood to school-day mood. At the same time, I think my brain is getting rusty. Argh.

Explored blogger's blogskin and I changed to this. Getting sick of the previous plain one. I had a hard time finding the picture too, but nonetheless I like the new blogskin.

Dear Sun, please shine as brightly as you can tomorrow morning. Please.

469

2010-10-22T11:05:00.001+08:00

Haw Par Villa on a rainy day, with my dear Reney. :>
First time there, been wow-ing here and there. Interesting huh, I shall bring my kids there next time!

Headed Vivo, and had:
-Lunch @ secret recipe (again)
-Yogurt @ Yigloo (AWESOME! Let's go there again aites darl? hehe :b)
-Happily Polaroid-ing with her despite the haze.

Thanks girl, for being an awesome friend for the past 12 years, let's keep this f/s strong always. (L)
not to forget, KOI's zero-sugar milk tea is nice! (Y)

Listening to 萧亚轩 - 错的人

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能

可能在爱里面这样算笨
可能永远没有所谓永恒
但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

don't mention it,

2010-10-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

Like I mentioned, it was a fruitful trip. I always find traveling troublesome, but now I find it fun to visit places you'd never been before, understand their culture, see how their way of living differs from yours. Great experience in Changzhou and Xiamen. :>

I'd made new friends, and not forgetting old friends;

Weibing, a combination of my two cousins. According to his saying, he's 26, I'm 27. =.=

(From left) Pe-Mam, Pe-Tae. new Thai friends. had a lil difficulty in communicating with them but they are really nice! (L)

Zhaojian. He is still as blur as 4 years back. Time flies man.

Chenxi. Still as sweet as 4 years ago :> Glad.

This is random. He's just a taxi driver I met at the jetty, but to my surprise, he's only 20! :O

This is the woman whom I'd know for my past 18 years. Mommy (L)

& here comes the friendly auntie who brings us to her home.

阳光幼稚园。

& with Mommy again (L)

Guess I'm really gullible;
to believe your words,
to believe I can make a player quit his game.

'cos you don't know how it hurts.

Supposed this is a wake-up call, to remind me not to trust anyone so easily, especially guys.

"Thl, make sure you learn this lesson."

:,)

Xiamen trip.

2010-10-19T02:24:00.000+08:00

Back from Xiamen finally :> though I'm only there for 12 days.

Fruitful trip. I've learnt new things, made new friends, catch-up with old friends and many more. Well, this holiday is not wasted!
Shall update again tomorrow.

Forget me

2010-10-04T10:25:00.000+08:00

On the Children's day...
· I'd proven something, and my hard work is paid off :>
· baked some brownies for lovelies
· heart-to-heart talk with Zhu, (Thanks for the soundclip!)
· I had the most special Mid-autumn (belated) celbration with lil bros. Happening night at Boat/Clarke Quay.

On the Saturday...
Zhu's mommy cooked dinner for me! :> very nice! Thanks for the treat (y)
and Sunday, I went to safra to learn my kata. We'll be having grading again soon, I can't afford to skip this man.